we march because

We march because in 1969 Sylvia Rivera threw the first brick and yet fifty years later bathrooms are still being patrolled and controlled,

because you treat my fellow sisters like we're both your worst nightmare and your greatest fantasy rolled into one even though we are not here for your pleasure,

and because America's worst mass shooting in history took place in our month against our people and they ask why marriage isn't enough?

a final walkthrough

A Final Walkthrough.

Walking through corridors for the final time, 
trailing my fingers down bannisters
and running through a studio,
all for old times’ sake.

The walls of this building have seen many of my memories,
have captured and been present at 
uncountable moments and I leave pieces of my life
 scattered throughout the staircases.

the invisible femme

The invisible femme: a feminine looking lesbian who struggles to convince or show that she is gay.

 The invisible femme: a lesbian who recieves yet another label because she doesn't conform to society's stereotypical definition of what a lesbian looks like.  You know; short hair, short nails and a wardrobe full of checked shirts and and heavy-duty "man boots." 

The invisible femme: the girl writing this blog post.

"You're too pretty to be gay" or "I never would have guessed" are both comments I've recieved a few more times than I'd prefer and I'm still baffled as to how the first one is supposed to be complimentary in the slightest.  As for the second one I always feel a surge of annoyance which is quickly followed by frustration because I know that the stereotypes I mentioned before are to blame for people not guessing.  My long hair and painted nails are as much a part of me as my blue eyes and my sexuality are and yet the first two somehow erase or coverup the fourth despite the fact that it's the latter two which aren't changeable? 

As an invisible femme I am both privileged and disadvantaged.  I "pass" as a straight woman so therefore do not recieve even half as much abuse and homophobia as my sisters who fit the stereotype, but on the other hand the number of homophobic comments that have been made in my hearing about those sisters because I am not counted as one of them is heartbreakingly high.  I don't fit the stereotype so therefore I'm clearly a straight women who would find a "haha gayyyyyyyyy" comment amusing..  By not fitting the stereotype I pass under the radar, I avoid the weird looks and whispered comments that so many people I know have had to deal with but at the same time I often wonder if I also pass under the radar of people I belong with.

Stereotypes are so prevalent both outside and inside my community that often I am an invisible femme not only to boys in the club but also to members of my own group.  How many potential flirtations or coffee dates have I missed out on because I chose to wear a dress that day.  When I went to a queer craft fayre did I look like an outsider to my own people?  Is my love of checked shirts just seen as a quirky "me thing" or as the tongue-in-cheek acceptance and love of one of the many stereotypes held under the umbrella of lesbian it actually is?

pride: a playlist

Hello and HAPPY PRIDE MONTH everyone!  

I've already written up a handful of blogposts which I feel very organised and bloggerish about (shoutout to the lovely Abbey for telling me how to schedule properly a while back) and I have a couple more ideas which I'm hoping to form into posts soon- especially as one of them involves a trip to The Hummingbird Bakery... But enough about the rest of the month, todays post as you might have guessed from the title is all about pride playlists! More specifically the pride playlist I'm about to share with you.

Confession time: I actually have four queer themed playlists with various songs and artists and themes but as much as I would love to rave about every single song I don't think you would enjoy reading the mile long post it would turn out to be.  So instead I've picked my top six favourite songs that are present on at least one of my pride playlists!!  So in no particular order, other than the one I remembered them in, here is my ultimate pride playlist!

I Am What I Am from La Cage aux Folles (the musical not the dull as dishwater film on Netflix) was a song that I grew up listening to a lot on my mums musical CD's and I've always loved it and then when I realised it was from a queer musical I just loved it even more; it's about banging your own drum, not caring about small minded people and just being proud of yourself-whoever you might be! 

Girls like Girls by Hayley Kiyoko is a song that just had to feature on this written playlist, not least because it features on every single music playlist on I have!  As summer approaches I've been listening to this song more and more; it's so positive and catchy- the chorus gets stuck in my head on a regular basis-

She Likes Girls by Metro Station is one that just makes me want to get up and dance around wildly whether I'm in my room or on a train.  It's so catchy and SUCH a positive change of music-based attitudes to women let alone to women being interested in each other.  It's super catchy and honestly might be one of my favourite songs in general as well as being a favourite queer themed one.

Diana Ross's I'm Coming Out is such a JAM and is another one that will always get me wanting to dance around like a twit.  It's such a completely feel-good song that whether you're part of the community or not I think it'll still get you smiling and in a good mood.

Rude covered by Ana Free & Mia Rose is honestly the prettiest version of any song ever AND they didn't change the pronouns which gave this song a new life as one recognisable by queer people.  The song itself was good beforehand but Ana Free's voice is so unbelivably beautiful I think this version is much better!

Well it just has to be the Glee version of I Wanna Dance With Somebody by Naya/Santana & Heather/Brittany!  Whitneys original is one of my favourite songs ever but with two girls and a pronoun change it's just ever so slightly better.

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I've linked to a youtube video of each song so if you listen to any of them let me know what you think or tell me your own favourite song (pride themed or not) and I'll give it a listen!

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