season four or season no more of this rubbish.

*This post contains spoilers about season 4 of OITNB.*


Right: so I just finished watching season four of orange is the new black and I have a few thoughts; angry, heartbroken, furious thoughts.

First off I am going to mention and then walk away from the fact that a lot of the most recent season was centered around mentally ill inmates which is pretty great until you take into consideration that Suzanne's personal and romantic storylines were made into comedic elements, Sam Healy and his mother could have been good but just ended up being confusing and do not get me started on Lolly.  Her backstory made me cry but for the writers to then treat her like an amusing side plot and scapegoat, desperately clutching a potato.  Not exactly great representation of mental health storylines.."you can have them but we're going to make the characters into jokes"..thanks but no thanks.

I feel like Sophia's entire story was just swept under the rug to make way for about six episodes of nothing happening and as she is the only trans character on the show that's not exactly acceptable; Judy King made me want to cry with boredom- I kind of think I see the point the writers were trying to made but for it just didn't work; and the rape apologist scenes made me want to throw up.

And now onto the penultimate episode of season four...what the actual hell was that? I mean seriously.

There are dozens and dozens of characters in this show: some have been there from the beginning, some only just arrived this season; but there are dozens and dozens to choose from.  Out of these dozens there are five main black women and out of those five there are only two lesbians. So why oh why is one of the only coloured LGBT women in the entire show the character who is now dead?

The writers could have picked any character, any and yet the one they choose to kill off is the one with the least representation; Poussey Washington was half of the only representation on the show that queer WOC had (the other being a woman who has been viewed as comedic character in her attitude and attractions since the very beginning.)  It's not groundbreaking, shocking or entertaining.  It just hurts because the message you are sending is "you don't matter. you are disposable. we don't care about you as anything more than an audience statistic" and I cannot put into words how wrong and harmful this message is to queer black women who want to feel accepted and to believe they can live happily; because they can.

If the writers were really committed to Poussey being the one to die (I must ask why though) then for me personally, after the whole entire season of the various groups always being up in each others faces it would have made a little more sense if it had been another prisoner who did the deed and intended to do it; mainly because it wouldn't have allowed them to do what they did for the entire final episode and drag it all out to have it end in the middle of nowhere with all the women just stood in hallways.  But to have them focus on the guard for the entirety of the final episode and all the little bits and pieces that mirror real life events; real life deaths of black people, it just doesn't sit well or look good.  To make her death an accident after hundreds of queer women have died "accidentally" is not something we want to see anymore and especially not the death of a black person in prison when you can look back at events in the past year and see where the words 'accident' and 'self inflicted' have been painted over every other story.  We see this on the news; we don't want to see it in fiction as well.

Additionally, while I do understand the whole 'no spoilers' thing, a trigger warning is not a spoiler; it's potentially life saving and there were a lot of moments (more so than previous seasons) which definitely needed a trigger warning, or at least a blanket "watch with care" tweet from the writers before the show was released.

This show should be about women; the diverse women prisoners, and yet this season seemed to be more focused on the mostly straight, white, male guards.  I didn't set a calendar event to watch men with a power complex completely degrade, spit on and bully women.  

There will be a twitter tag going on tonight (23rd June)
the UK time is 9pm-Midnight and twitter account @blackLGBT has all the information; it would be brilliant if you could join us in tweeting.

If you have any thoughts about this season then please let me know in the comments!

love el


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recently read: for once in my life


Ages and ages ago I was wandering through my home-town Waterstones when I picked up a really beautiful looking book; it had pretty colours and piano-ish bits on it and the blurb sounded exactly like a book I'd love.  So of course I put it down and walked out of the shop only to later try and add it to my 'to-buy' list to find out I didn't have a clue what it was called or who wrote it.  All I knew was roughly where it was in the set-up of the shop..something which is incredibly unhelpful when you're standing in a different Waterstones running through both the alphabet and the layout in your head going "well it should be somewhere between here"(spoiler alert; it wasn't.)

Fast forward several months and I found myself jumping for joy and hugging the pretty book ( I may not have jumped but there was definitely a bookish hug). I'd found it! This time I used my brain and, knowing I'd never find it again, bought it. Then despite my excitement I went back to university leaving it behind on my desk at home..oops! But now I'm home again and upon seeing it sitting on my desk looking pretty but very much unread decided that now is a lot better than later and therefore I spent all of Saturday reading it!

The beautiful book in question is "For Once In My Life" by Marianne Kavanagh; and my instant opinion was proved correct;  I loved it!  It definitely proved to be a good choice to fling myself back into reading with.

The book spans eight years from 2002 to 2011 and flicks back and forth between the two lives and perspectives of the main characters, Tess and George, who are in overlapping friendship circles and who repeatedly get told that the other person is absolutely definitely their soulmate.  Despite this; not to give too much away, Tess and George don't meet each other face to face for quite a while which makes an incredibly refreshing change from the coffee-spillage meet-cute on page seven that normally gets written.

I loved being able to read through snippets of each of their lives,whilst it was incredibly frustrating when I worked out just how many times one of them had to just turn around or go inside and they would meet, but no, the two characters end up living their own lives with jobs and relationships for so many years, but it just made me wish I could read even faster.  It's such a lighthearted book, it made me smile so many times as well as causing an in-depth text conversation with one of my closest friends about the idea of 'The One'..which is a lot less scary to think about when backed by this book; and it's pretty. I think I'm more in love with this cover than any book cover before..but just look at it.

If you like books about friendship and love and can appreciate a very interesting take on the idea of romantic soulmates then I completely recommend this one.

If you have any book recommendations then please let me know! 

love el

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